Currently listening to Jolene by Dolly Parton
Kissed mak by the chick is what I do everyday ♥ lapyamak Moving on to Raya Day's. Well, the first day of Syawal was great , Alhamdulilah. A lit' bit sad thought cause mak is ill. Poor mak :( She's getting better now, thank god :')
So far , September has been nice to me. Again, Thank You♥ On Tuesday , I sang with Amirul Azri for english assignment . It was quite fun. More exciting is knowing that you finished your assignment. hihi , thanks boy. Kay , moving on for today. Went to school like always , learnt so many things and Amir lost his shoes. Amir, I feel sad for you boy. Thank god , Hazeem found it. So , as I was walking through out the path at school , I remember something I cant remember before . Well , it strikes me. Sadly , I wont tell you what it is. I'm sorry. Maybe , someday okay ?
NIGHT
I watched Hell's Kitchen and The Glee Project Finale today , kay it was amazing fun. Then , I went up stairs and getting ready for Add Math studies but suddenly I checked my phone and Din texted me, so here it goes :
"Mia , kenapa kau suka berpura-pura ? Kenapa kau tak nak tunjukkan diri kau yang sebenarnya ? Kenapa kau suka buat orang happy tapi kau tak happy kan ? Kenapa kau suka buat something yang bagi aku agak memalukan and bagi kau tak ? Kenapa kau suka buat semua tu ? Tolong terangkan dekat aku ?" via DIN.
Well Din , I did reply right ? I'm so sorry I had to post this in my blog , I feel like I wanna share it cause you'll never know maybe there's people out there who can understands me. And the other reason why I want to post this , its because you made me shed to tears. No , its not your fault. Its just me, this is who I am. Ya know?
I always feel insecure about myself , I never feel like I was the only one for someone , I never feel my life was complete , I feel ill everday , I feel like dying and most of all I feel nothing. My family are my best support system ever, I will die for them. Najmin and Nabilah are like fading away from me. HHMM. Zahid told me that girls makes blog because they want sympathy . Well , I don't need sympathy from anyone. I'm okay , I'm FINE. I'm just LOST. I feel sleepy , not really.
