When you see the world differently

I'm good, not sad nor happy. I like this kinda of felling , when you fell nothing but yourself. I know its sounds selfish but trust me, you'll love it ♥ 

Just taking a break from this amazing life. Sometimes I don't feel blessed enough but when I look around. I've got everything I want. Ya Allah , how could I missed this :') Thank You. I'm blessed. Truly I am. You know what. I'll try my best to forget about Helmi.Yes, its sounds pathetic but I couldn't forget about him. Maybe its easy for you but its not easy for me. I always thought you were "the one that got away" But knowing that you'd falling in love with another person. It kinda broke my heart. You moved on and I didn't so yea "I'd pay the price" Listen , I'm gonna try my best. Don't push me , Don't break me , Just believe in me. Please ? (:

So far I'd open two blogs and its start with this :

I don't want to brag about my problems over here, reveal personal problem to the world is not the best way to express your feeling. People around you will keep talking about your writing, continued say that you are just another pathetic person in this beatiful world -the one who desperately need sympathy from strangers. But today, i'm feel like spitting out my entire life's story to anyone who will listen. -via Syazrin

I don't want to brag about my problems over here. Especially when it comes to my personal problems. Exposing your personal life to the entire world doesn't sound good, well at least to me. But this time, I feel like writing something deep. Truly from me. It's not about my problems, technically. Well here it goes. -via Alia Qis


Guys, really. Syazrin, you know how much I love you and Nik Alia Qistina , I know we're not that close but I won't miss a thing to read what's on your blog. Are you guys okay ? I mean you sound sad and you guys talked about drugs and losing someone how much pain it is. Gosh , seriously I cried. You know how people around you talked about how pathetic girls who talks about their problems on blog. But, when you actually talked about it on your blog you felt so much better right ? hhmm. I felt the same way too. Maybe , people thought we need sympathy but what we really need is someone to talk too. We're just lost. They can blame us, pretty much a lot if they want too. And seriously , no one can fix our heart. We're just have to fix it ourself. heh.

"Cause you can't bandage the damage

You never really can fix a heart"

So yea , here's a song for you guys. uumm, I hope it will help you someday. I'm a lit' bit discarded and insure about myself. Well, who am I to talk about this right ? But, just give it a try. Okay? A song from my fav singer since I was 12years old. I present to you , DEMI LOVATO (!) love ya guys , amirahfatin