Monday , 30 Jan 2012
I looked at his picture. Even though , Anem and Bella told me not to. I guess it wasn't suppose to hurt. But , it did. He moved on. Good. That's good. That's really good actually. I told no one. Don't feel like going to school but I went anyways. I ride a Pony to school today. Sorry. I was just trying to cheer myself up. They told me , I'm strong but I'm not. They told me , I can handle it but I can't. Oh and they also told me that this is just a nightmare , soon enough I'll wake up from it. The things they said are true actually. hhmm. My ride is here , a new Unicorn name Laila.I'm going to Neverland. I'll see you soon since this is juast a dream of mine.
Thursday , 2 Feb 2012
It's Thursday. So far so good , Alhamdulilah (: Pn.Khairiah is teaching Chemistry right now. I can't focus. No , I'm not tired. I just don't like Chemistry. The one and only subject I can't save in my brain. I refuse to take tuition class. I'll feel embarrassed. I have to work hard by myself in Chemistry. I can't do it but I have too. Yesterday, was pretty nice actually. I had fun. First, it was Harry Styles's birthday. Second , doing PJK while exercising. Last but not least, Pengakap ! That was the best part. Wednesday, you made me smile. Thank You.
Friday , 3 Feb 2012
Can't let this feeling go. I don't like being ignored actually. They said , maybe your the one who's ignoring them. Hhmm. True. I feel so bad right now. But , I tried to smile everyday even though I feel like crying at that time. I didn't even read Yaasiin today. But I have read it yesterday after maghrib prayers. My classmate , they never get me. They never will. No one does. But , I love them because they accept me for whom I am. Well, that's a relief. Trying to smile.
Typing this while listening to Yuna- Terukir Di Bintang ♥