The one I've been missing

It's been a while since I really update my blog. I've been busy with homework and tuition lately. I haven't been sleeping so good. I get tired so easily and forget things. I miss the old days when I'm nothing than the active one and remember things all the way. People may though life is simple as long as you get used to it , but I'm still not used to it. Maybe , just maybe. I miss the old days. The old records back then. hhmm. People don't get me, they never will. I've been talking about the same thing every time I posted something. I'm just homesick. If I had a brain , I'd be cold as the stone and rich as the fool. I've been listening to Birdy while typing , she never fails to touched my heart :') I will try my best not to talk about the same thing every day or think the same way. I'm just afraid. This feeling. It wont let me go. SPM is near and I feel like crawling. Oh god , help me.

I've been ignoring a few special friends of mine. I feel very guilty. But , what I miss the most is the things I never imagen happen did happened. Do you get me ? hhmm , maybe not. Can't wait to start the project I've been working on since 15. But I have to wait. The perfect time , the perfect situation and perfect companion. What I fear the most is what would they say ? I mean , are they gonna say bad things? or comparing me with other people? or maybe they say , she's in the class A Team , stuck in her daydream , been this way since 15. Well , I guess we'll just have to wait.

I've been thinking about the universities I'm going. Insyallah (: English Literature is a good course actually. Taking English as my second language would be nice ^^ or maybe Korea, haha. Even though , I'm trying my best to prove to my parents that I can be a good director but they still told me that it's a hard thing to do. I have to believe them since my father is in the industry. But , I will never give up. Maybe after graduating I'm gonna take a few lessons for Film and Shorts Stories. Insyallah (:

I won't be updating my blog for a month , I'm sorry. I have things to do and problems to solve. Whoever you are reading this , I really appreciate it ♥ After all these years I never though a real person would read my blog. Even though its kinda cocky but still the time you took to read my blog is massive than just a thank you :') Much much love ♥ So , I wish you all the best and I'll see you soon.