Sometimes I wonder am I doing the right things ? Making the best decision ? To be in this place right now , to learn new things , to be.. I don't know ? Me, I guess.
SPM is getting near and my parents are more worried about me. I really want to feel that 'feeling'. My mum would always make sure I won't fall apart. She would told me what to do and let me go the next. Sometimes I don't get it , but yeah mums.. You wouldn't understand them, they just want the best for you.I do have hopes and dreams that I want to achieved in life but well I guess you need to get straight A's to do that, don't cha ? hhmm, I feel very ambivalence sometimes. Don't know what to expect these days. Seeing people happy would made my day , make sure they stay who the are would be nice. I'm just.. hhmm I don't know. Crawling for SPM and Craving to be free. My parents told me I would miss a lot of opportunity if I don't do well in SPM. That's the things I'm worried about, not SPM but opportunity. Maybe you can get good grades and have so many chances in life or the other way around. Either way, I am willing to fight for it. The only reason I'm doing my SPM is for my parents and I would like to take my on way on wards. The support they gave is irreplaceable. They're just amazing. Who wouldn't want to be the cleverest kid in the world or to get into top Universities? Everyone want's it but in their own way. For me.. Well I guess , I just want to travel the seventh sense. Go to Egypt , Milan , Ukraine , Japan , Korea and Rome. I just want to travel and tell people my stories. Make new friends , be adventures, spontaneous all the way. Well I guess, I have to give it all up right now. NOW. I have to go back to my fantasy. Here goes Hogwarts , Narnia and Neverland.