Seeking for pleasure

My eyes are swollen from the tears last night. These cheeks of mine have been left me with scars and drops. The though of becoming who I am suddenly despair me from being whom I'm not. Believing in what I am is something important and if I loose that though, my feelings would be ambivalence.

Today was the second day of trial and its English yeay! I've been replaying Live While We're Young , on my way to school. yea , we'll be doing what we do just pretending that we're cool, so tonight! Okay stop, I've been embracing myself with One Direction. I think I'd have enough for today. haha. The test went well and I'm thankful cause it was not that hard as I expected, Alhamdulilah (: Wani gave me this little cute book that has a motivation quotes as a cover , oh I fancy those kind of books ♥ There's always something that I'm addicted to her. My goodness. Dearest Wani , thank you so much for the book and those nice wishes :') 

Honestly speaking , I miss a friend conversation. Lately, I've been listening to people's problems but I never solve mine. So yea , that kinda hurt. But that's typical me. Feeling sad by my self, I get used to it. Oh and uumm. Dearest you , you know who you are. You are the person whom I love and you bright up my world every time I talked to you , I miss you. I've been missing you since I got my pox. I know its kinda strange lately but I want the old you back. The one that who would send all those sweet text and never send texts like you don't care. I miss that, I know its hard to recall but we'll make through it. Right ?  Well yes , I'm not okay but I will be. If your always there next to me. I never attend to be selfish or a drama queen. If I did something , just tell me. Don't leave me with all these questions. If you have problems your own , you can always share. Don't leave me hanging okay ? hhmm. I may be friendly and flirty with boys but I want to travel the world with you , not them. I want to see Paris, the place you'd like to go right ? Well, I want to do all those things with you, not them. Lets make it clear that you'll be my William and I'll be your Kate , living like a fairy tale ♥