I asked Audra a question the other day : You pernah tak rasa macam tak de orang faham you ? Padahal sebenarnya masa tu , you paling nak support diaorang. Selalu Mia , was her replied (with the smile on her face) That was my first time feeling like that.Okay , so obviously the conversation is about... when you need someone , no one is there for you. This fear of mine can really effect my emotions. The fear of being perfect but you know , your imperfect. hhmm, can't deny that. I never really attend to be pretty , because I know I'm not. I'm more focusing on my personality , that's the best I can do. Maybe because when I was in form 1 until the middle of form 3 , I had a gorgeous best friend and I've been feeling insecure since then. I think another way to show people who I am , so I outshine my personality. Apparently , I ended looking stupid. Man , life is tough. No , it's never a regret but yeah , people change. Honestly speaking , its hard to forget about Helmi. He's the longest. Tahan air mata masa jumpa dia time Hari Koperasi, but thank god Wani was there. She calmed me down :') Amirah Fatin , tahan tahan. Ya Allah , only god knows how I felt. So , I moved on. Still trying , in the process. I won't stop. I keep myself busy just to forget about him and Alhamdulilah now dah hilang sikt.
Since, Mr. Cookie Monster have been texting me back , I feel different. I have butterfly in my stomach again. I don't know if he feel the same but we'll just hope for the best. I'm afraid he'll walk away, maybe or not. I don't know hhmm. See that's my fear, afraid of loosing people. Still can't let go of Nabilah but she has a new friend now, right? She haven't been texting me since then. Its okay, I understand. Either way , so far he's been amazing. hihi, giggles^^ Don't you run away just because you're afraid if something that is out of control , we can take the time just give it a try cause there's no harder taking it slow -Say you'll stay by Melissa Polinar.
My favourite picture with Wanie :')
Typing this while eating ice cream and cookies , with background music : Say You'll stay & Runaway