I lost a few great friends along the years. I missed them a lot. I'm trying my best to keep track with the friends I have now and make it all worth it. I tried to call them whenever I have the time too and keep track with everything. The feeling of giving up revolves around me everyday. But I always tell myself that 'Life is Beautiful' you're going to miss the best part of it if you give up early. Love life as much as you can. I love my job, I do. I love the children's , they never fail to put a smile on my face.
I don't want to be the kind of person that forget people easily. I hate that. I tried to remember all the little things. I really hate myself during high school. My first and second year was the worst there. I don't regret getting to know a lot of people but at the same time I hate all the things I did. It's like I was faking it. Man, I suck. There was a lot of people hating me. I hate myself, how can that be worst ? I think the only thing I like about high school is the people whom accept me for who I am. I tried my best to forget all the stuff that had happen but its hard.
I miss Wani, Audra, Najmin and Iman so much. My life would really suck without them. I blame myself for all the bad things that had happen in high school. It's not much of a life you're living , it's not just something you take, it's given.
Pain, I feel pain now.